Dilemma
I’m in a dilemma. Well, yeah, this is not the first time. My life is just so full of drama, some people nominated me to be the drama queen of the year. Anyhoo, because this is my blog, I’m entitled to have all kinds of dilemmas or dramas as often as i want to… Right ? right… This is the case : I can’t really decide what I want in my life at the moment. I mean, if you asked me two years ago, i would have simply told you that i wanted carrier above anything. At least for the next 5 years… But now, of course things have changed. I have a family now. My path of life shifted two years ago when i decided to let go of my carrier, and marry the man of my life. Everybody was suprised (can’t blame them, i was shocked as hell !), but as always, i did what i wanted to do. And now, here I am, never knew that things can be so darn complicated. There is a piece of me who still wants to achieve something, but some part of me tells me to wait. I’m confused whether I have to start looking for a new job or go back to school, or just simply wait until my darling little angel Alyssa is old enough to be left alone. If I wait, then it will be more difficult to go back to the professional life, but if I do it now, then I might lose Alyssa’s childhood, and there’s no getting back to it… Beside, honestly and surprisingly, sometimes I do think that I really can enjoy the role of motherhood… So the question is, do I really want a carrier or is it simply just my ego ?
But then again, there’s nothing wrong about having an ego, is it ?
