new year new dreams
The year begun with a promising happiness.
First, I had great new year parties (3 parties in 2 days) with the in laws family and relatives, involving POLE DANCING.
Yup, you got that right. I and my mother in law had some crazy pole dancing there.
On the second day of the year, I received a very surprising news that brighten up my day. Imagine waking up in the morning exhausted but then when you checked your mail you found out there was an exciting news there! Bless the technology!
I was so happy I couldn’t stop smiling. I called Jo and I sms-ed my family in Jakarta. Mom said she was so proud of me. That made me feel even happier. I’ve always wanted to make her happy and proud of me… it’s like a dream come true.
Talking about dream, I’m a person who always believe in the power of it. I once read a biography of a famous person that if you believe in your own dreams, someday you’re gonna make it. And since then, I’ve always dream BIG.
The thing is, sometimes people doesn’t really aware of what exactly do they want. I had always thought that I wanted to be a carrier woman, working in a sophisticated office, wearing some fancy suit. There were times that I felt I crashed my own dream and life when I decided to get married, have kid and be a stay home mom.
Only a couple months ago I realized something. This is exactly the way I wanted it back then, when I was still in junior high, doing BP (Bimbingan Penyuluhan). There was a question about where would I be in 5, 10 years time. And my answer was, in 5 years, I’d be graduated and start working. In 10 years time, I’d be married and have kids and stop working until my kids are old enough.
So I guess, my dreams are not shattered after all. Some of them are just shifted.
A lot of people lives on someone else’s dreams. Someone else’s expectancies. I did too…
I hope this new year, can be a new beginning to all of us. To start living and fighting your own dreams. I believe the key is to be truthful to yourself. Look deep inside your heart and let it tell you what she wants…
Happy 2006!!!
