L.U.C.K
Do you believe in luck?
Well, I do!
I’ve read some opinions from people who said ‘there’s no such thing as luck’. If you were being ‘lucky’, it’s from all the ‘good energy’ that you have spent in the progress of making your dream come true. Or in other word, karma.
Well, I dont agree with this opinion. It’s like telling all the unfortunate children in Afrika that they suffer because they havent done any good things. Or telling Paris Hilton she earned everything that she owned because she’s a nice person who has done a lot for the world (maybe she is, but hey why couldnt I become one of the Hilton’s granddaughter? I am also nice enough!)
Anyway, you might not agree with me. But that’s ok!
I still believe that to live and survive in this cruel cruel world, you need 3 things. No, make it two. Luck and Hardwork.
Luck here has a broaden meaning. It can be your potention, your talent, faith,destiny, God’s will… you name it. You cant deny the fact that some people get it easier than others. Some students dont need to study hard to get an A. Some get Ds even after all the night they spent studying.
Is that fair?
No, but you just have to face it.
Life is a bitch. All you can do is just try to get used to it.
So what the hell is your point, Fanny?
Well, I dont have any point!
I guess I’m just realizing a cold hard fact that my life is full of luck. And… I’m not really proud of that.
No… Dont get me wrong…
It’s not that I’m complaining. I do feel blessed for all I’ve got. A loving supportive family. A good education. And many other things…
It’s just that… everything was so easy.
I got good grades in school without having to work so hard. After I graduated I got a good job. From the same job I met a guy who happens to be the love of my life. We got married and 9.5 months later we got a kid. And I got another job. But then I felt guilty about leaving my baby alone. So I lost the job. Then I decided to write. So I did. It finished in a few months but I left it untouched afterwards. Not until some friends asked me to try to sent it to a publisher did I even dare to have that kind of thought. So I sent it. It got approved almost right away and published a few months later!
GOSH!
I’ve never even wanted to be a writer!
(Although I’m considering it as a bonus. Again, I’m not complaining!)
Sometimes I feel like… I dont earned them. Sometimes I think that maybe I was a saint in my previous life so all the good deed I had done before was paid in this life –I wonder what kind of life will I get later on from all the bad deed I’ve done now?–But then again, I dont really believe in life after death.
And now… now I’m in a deep s**t.
I dunno whether luck has left me all alone or he’ll come back to me?
Or may be this is the chance for me to prove my self.
By not just depending on luck, and start working harder…
